Thanx to Mr. Aliz Zala for scanning this pics i requested months ago. Now only then i received but its ok. We humans are forgetful. Dont blame him at all.
These pics brings me alot of memories of 2008 - 2009
Here's a pic of my current classmate at ITE Clementi. Dont we look B.E.A.Utiful?? HAHA I tell u which lecturer i damnd' & adored.
See that lecturer on the 3rd from the left front row and from the right on the 3rd and 4th column, are one of my fav lecturers. Lastly from the first row on the 5th from the left the most hatred lecturer. Hmm why -- well dont ask. Or some of u already knew haha.
I planned to have a softcopy since i accidently deleted this photo last year. I still think this pic we look really...happy? Thx to updilla for capturing these moments. Oh-well~
Yerp these are one of my closest mates in ITE Clem. Im known for the only girl LOLs
I dont know bout u but somehow i feel like we've been deceived by those media and Illuminati. So many secrets in the world we dont know.
And they have the actual proof why they kill MJ. Well its up for u guys to believe
Theres alot of videos bout Illuminati, google em' if ur keen to know more. And also watch the whole episodes bout the arrival on youtube. Theres alot of secrets revealed in that video.
I was so happy, beyond happy -- In my dream that is..
U know what i dreamt of?
CATS!
Seriously nice dream, theres like cats everywhere and i chase em' till i went into stranger's house. Sat on someone's window hugging this fat furry cat tightly. I can see him choking but what the hack i just keep on hugging the cat. Then i saw another adorable cat, i let go the one that im hugging jump out from the window and chased him.
Chase and chase suddenly i met my mom.
It was all vague dream couldn't remember.... oh well Its weird dream but all the cats were all furry -- cute -- adorable.
Now im all single, doesn't mean its fine for u to come back and be friends with me again. How many times must i tell u to stay away from me?? Get it? Stay away -- dont read my blog -- dont add me up in facebook?
Had a long nap after religious class & cooking. Still bored -- This is why they said "find more new friends, or make plans with friends" Bullshit!! I really feel like i need an alone time w/o feeling bored thats all. Bodoh nyer feeling im dealing. *sigh*
bored
Bored
BOred
BORed
BOREd
BORED!
the feeling of bored is pissing me off or was it -- other issues??
Ding-Dong a text message from Hadi. Was rather glad to hear from him. Sorta worried when he's been idle. Yea usually he'd text me at 9.30pm.. Im all mad yet im worried bout him? Am i nuts!! How could anybody have a combo mixed-up feeling!! arghh thats what i hate about myself.
I dont know how am i to handle when i'll be seeing him on 24th December. Fetching him from PasirRis on his book-out day. I thought of not to and just ignore him -- but I realised back then he had done good things to me & my mom. To me by saying 'thank-you' it isn't enough, I had to repay him with kindness atleast.
Of all the bad things he did, doesn't mean i forget all about his good side and deeds he had done.
Slowly i guess i'll softened my heart, but each time i think about the things he did that made me oh so full of enraged. Thats when my ego and temper started to rises. I can't find ways to ease my pain hais...
Woke up at 12pm, 1st thing that pop up in my head was the song called 'Damppened Spirit by Ingridé' where i first had my gig mosh(i think) @ Baybeats. Was like few years back during my secondary school days. Those single-single days. With no limitations haha. Now im back hearing to Hardcore Electro songs hwahwaaa!
Introduce u toIngridé. Yerp one of my favourite local band back then. Had a blast during their gig at Baybeats.
Some of my mates don't believe i was a so-called tomboy haha. Take a look a pic of me during my secondary school times:
Different from now right?? Yea i myself can't believe. Its like a metamorphosis
Don't know why the sudden i feel like my mood is going way back to the past before i met anyone.
Likewise my classmates or should i call em' my members, they really made my day. I thank u for that. And this is their new lame quotes "YOUR MOM CHEST HAIR!" hahaa
While i was in my friend's car on the way to ..Ang Mo Kio -- Geylang -- Pasir Ris Chalet, my mind was constantly thinking of a way out. Im in a conffusion state. Should i just softened my heart and give another chance or just fuck it and leave it, be as ego as ever just to cover my fucking pain and torment.
Never take some one for granted, Hold every person close to your heart, Because you might wake up one day and realize, That you have lost a diamond, While you were too busy collecting stones.
I hate it when im ego. I hate that i had to hurt someone im closed with. Just that i had to for the sake of fighting my pains away. I can't handle it. Its just too much pain n torment. No one knows my pain, my anger. They assumed im desprate for love? Do u kow the difference between love and desprate? If im desprate it wont be this far with him. Hack i would go to someone else for love! So please dont tell me that im desprate. And yea, pls dont ever criticize my mother! She brought me up, she raised me up without a father, to me shes a best mom! I'll get offended easily when someone critizie my mom. If u wanna spit vulgars throw it on me, not on my mom. All i knw a girl like u, its a total deffensive, slut, bitch, snatcher, cheeky. A girl like u, i can find anywhere on the streets. I will nvr forget n forgive u for swearing my mom, which is totally absurd and insolent! For what-ev it is, i'll never forgive her for bringing my mom into this matter its just too immature and really unsulting.
Some part of me felt like i was dying wen i had to let go of him. Its not cuz of freedom, its cuz of the pain he causes me. Pls dont think that im one of those gerls who bastard a guy and go for someone else. Im not like that. Only god knows my pain.
Another week my mom will be home soon. Come home soon maa :,(
Ok that was a joke haha, didnt get to see him bald yet actually. im imagining him bald with an arrow on his head just like Aang =D superb cute.. I can't wait to rub my hands all over ur bald botak head wen ur back HWAHWAA. Grrrrr cant wait for after 2 weeks.
Now he's at Pulau Tekong & Im here at Jurong. Which is extremely damn faaarrr I hate u for leaving me!
At the bright side, i get to hear his voice for a minute before lights out, thats good enough fer me. But i dunno how long his batt will last since army forbids em' to bring charger or they'll be fine! The rules and restrictions are so like wtf -_-
Wad a suddn tag msg i received. Usually he doesnt tag on my blog. Hahaha find it sweet. kikikiki
Stole L4D from my mate's hard-drive. I thank u for that! Gonna play it till i get bored with it especially during cummin holidays. Who-ev got a 2nd version of L4D pls do share and seed online =D
My head hurts been elbow punchd by Salim directly on my fore-head(unintentionally la) HAHA how did it happend? Was peeking on Alif's comp screen with other guys in my classmates. Somehow Salim's arm was long enough to elbow punch on my head by accident. All thanx to the SoccerManager.com, likewise la all the guys in my class are soccer game FREAAAKS, when they're engross they forget all the surroundings, Nvr get close to em' while they're gaming -_-!!. Pundex tol.
Gonna watch this movie SOOON! but it releases on 12March2010 in US. For Singapore, no clue when! Hack gonna watch in theater since im a MEMBER!! =D or just dwnld it in my laptop since my laptop superb fast!! Gonna watch it with myPrince or alone. .
Stole 2012 from my friends hard-drive. Gonna watch it on my lappy with myPrince. HAHA im like one of the last person to watch this.
Gonna watch it again in my laptop during these comming boring holidays -_- 98% completed, left 2percent(MAKE IT FAAAAST!)
Greeeat Prince will be joining all the botak2 group during my fucken PIC test! macam nak cabot ader!!
What shall i do when ur away?? Job? Went for interview, no calls no response just cause im a student. Im all jobless. I got nothing to do besides my school projects/ass-ignments and burn my time away staring at my laptop screen blankly. Come to think of it, i got nothing much in me. I dont know what u find me so attractive or useful? Been wondering actually. Since the day u upgrade urself, U got ur own bike, ur huge circle of friends, freedom. While me just my school bag, ezlink card, a number of mates & plus my lifestyle is not like urs, i have a tight curfews. Compare me & u now, i am nothing great.
I just feel like we're different not like what we used to yet ur still here. Not that i mind just that i feel really different...in u. I understand this is part of life. People change as times goes by.
Late 2009(recently)
Early 2008
At times i do miss thse years back then. Before the bike came in. It reminds me how i fall for u. The closer i get to u, the more i learn bout u. The things u hate, u love, ur bad side, ur good side..Everything.
Now u've changed(though u didnt realise), i feel like i gotta start back from the top to get to know u again. But that doesn't mean im gonna forget those leap years. The most thing i love bout him is not cause of what he have, cause he made me a better person from what i used to be. That is why he made a huge impact in my life. And i hate it when ppl said that im blind. I need to wake up. No i think its u who need to wake up, stop giving me bad advice, making him look bad, and ask me to find someone else? get a life! That is why now i dont really like talking my probs to peeps. They tend to think otherwise. And I dont really like ppl to look bad on him.
*I gotta learn to accept ppl's good side and bad side, No one is perfect. U taught me that love (:
While waiting for me to cool myself after a tiring date out with myPrince, wanna blog bout NEW MOON SAGA. its an interesting and complicated at e same time? I rate it 10 point 10. Its bout the cold ones & the hot ones. Curious wad im toking bout? Go check it out! Its worth watching in e theater. Oh yea wanna thanx WeiXiong my mate for for booking me a good seat =D
U dont knw how enormously great great great great im feeling wen ur back!! Thanx (:
Yerp mom called, Alhamdulillah. Happy and calmed to know shes fine....=D
Yeaaaah!! Hes wearing that SUPERBMAN Top, Gagaaa gueh
My boy here not into cam-ing, so not much pix taken yea.
Im tired went out with him since 2pm till 12am. Really exhausted wanna knock out. Tomorrow those who are comming to Sentosa pls do lemme know. Will be taking photos and video shooting and of course nak mandi pat laut, mandi la!!
Most of the time mom would be cooking rendang, vegetables, sambal chicken for Hari Raya Haji. Now that shes not around, me and sis took over her place. Dishes were wonderful, but not as perfect as my mom. Sian really sian w/o her around.
Pray for my mom that she'll be alright. Somewhere in Saudi Arabia where she is now is in bad flood(if u heard the news). What i know rain doesn't come often in Arab. I guess this is a test from Allah. Usually she called home at 9pm, why isn't my home phone ringing? Worried really worried
Total theres 7 Days in a week right? Theres: Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday How bout i add another day to end the week by naming it "Gooday" after Sunday. Huh cool right total theres 8 days in a week? K la mebbe to u its rubbish total loser thought, im just bored i think alot of rubbish. Oh yea felt nice after i fell down in a bus at the second level of the double deck. I guess i was too tired or sumtin? Paisey mann.
Happy like nvr happy before. Mom called home yesterday, while i was watching her favourite tv Indon show. Yes2 shes fine alhamdulillah, even my mom's friend called askin if she ever called. And 2ndly why im happy got to hang out with someone. Not date la just hangout/lepak. Dont ask who cuz i wont answer u.
The day my mom left for Haji, i witness a shooting star while i was gazing at the sky late at night. Its a miracle to me, i really miss her alot :,( May Allah always protect her. And she'll always be in my prayers, Amin~
I dedicate this for my mom. I just feel so lost when shes not around. Moreover when im in this condition. It just feel so quiet at home. Feels different w/o her. Before the day she took off. I had a bad gastric at night. Only me n sis knew bout it. I begged her not to let my mom know. Just wanna let her be in peace.
I'm always longing for her return. May Allah always protect her and guide her. I miss u mom :,(
As a promised to my mom i'll be better when shes away, insya'Allah
ACF was *&^*GHBHB*Y&57567VFGYU^%# all becuz of that U-KNOW-WHO. She is so bossy and so rude. Seriousy if i have the guts i'll swing my arms and punch on her face till she flew back. Woah shes making my temper boil siaa.
So to complete my task i just keep my mindset that what-ev im doing, is for friend's sake. Not for her or that bloody ACF!!!
Had a little bit of fun during break time. Well i ate 2 plate of rice and chill at library alone with my laptop, knowing somebody would come online. Well i guess not..
Ok now letthe picture do the talking:
Food damn nice we ranked it 10!!
Alif
Lionel
Fatin
You forever with your pudding!!
Yvonne!!
Class KM
Spot Fatin?
Yess shes the one that made me boil my temper
The wind is so strong.. Can see the wind thru my hair LOLs
Turn out i didnt even go to ACF haha. Woke up at 12+pm Im not sure what time is the 2nd shift, my mates didnt reply my msg, so if they hack care i'll do the same. Besides i think its better if i attend my religious class and i get to clean my house before Monday. Yerp Monday gonna be a big day for my mom, gonna have guest so house must be superb clean.
I guess tmrw i'll attend the ACF event. Like lazy actually..
Slept at 12am, awaken by the gastric at 3+am. Couldn't stand the pain, i took my pills but it said it need to be taken after food, rushed to my kitchen and heat up 2 slice of murtabak in a microwave. Eat in my room just so no one in my family notice. After awhile im better a bit. It just scares me wen-ev i experienced gastric .Now i guess i have to carry my medicine where-ev i go. -_- ok now i really regret for skipping meals. Sorry stomach.
I think later event im going for the 2nd shift, i need rest. Sorry guys. Besides they dont pay us. DUH! And it'll be really tiring cuz we're dealing kids, ands kids are really hyper. So we have to be hyper with em' HAHA
Now its 423am, can't sleep at the moment. Do what? Watch love story movie in my laptop till i doze off hehs.
Never get to rest. Since Monday i've been having a hard time sleeping. Thru out the week i had to wake up 7am??9am?? even on this weekends i had to wake up at 8am. =( im tired, and most of all i need to relax my mind only then i can relax my physical.
After school proceed to IMM swensen, mann that service was sucks. Like very rude seriously, but at least i showed my manners i smiled at her. Well thats not the reason why i said is bad. I requested for a wording on a an ice-cream cake and bloody pissed, she didn't show it to me after shes done on the wording. She just wraped it in a box and asked me for the bill. I wanted to scold her actually. but come to think of it, once i let go of my anger on someone, thats it mann its gonna be a ugly. cuz now i really really not in a good mood since Monday. I just kept it to myself and gave her a smile. And she never smiled back. I regretted buying cake at IMM Swensen. Should have gone to Jurong Point Swensen instead though its far. Far as in i had to deliver the cake @TohGuan sumwer near IMM a 10-mins walk. After i sent my cake to "someone" i had to rush home and had my prayers and head back to school. Seriously tired. And i was late thanx to 154!!
Nehmind the crap services doesn't matter to me, Im just glad u liked my cake. Yea that really gives me a little peace of mind now.
Went home straight after CCA. (Oh yea, i quit Videography!! Atlast eh) And unfortunately im home alone. Bored. Lay around in my room. Got scolded by my sis for laying around my keys outside my home. I forgot to remove my keys from the door after i enter in my house. Must have slipped my mind, or im just too tired to remember, my brain is really off. & My stomach giving me problems. I hope its not gastric. Y'knw wad hppns if i have gastric. No its not the pain that im worried. Im worried more on my mum. Like i said i want her not to worry bout me when shes out there at Saudi. Hais 2 more days left to spend time with my mom.
Its been a week i haven't been paying attention to lecture. Seriously my Advance IT(AIT) is way-way behind. My project idle. My CCA, pity my frens i didnt manage to help em'. Where was i? In my own world. Staring blankly at my screen -_-
My AIT exam is comming soon. Yet im still on Assignment 2 and my class is already on revisions. I've yet to complete my Assignment 3 and so on.. I might need my frens help on this weekends. Though i'll be busy with ACF dealing with hundreds of kids. mebbe after my 8 hrs shift i'll be focusing on my AIT with some help la. Anybody??
Please please i dont wanna go thru another gastric. I can feel like the pain is comming back. Yeah i admit im stuborn for not eating. Sometimes i thought i wanna eat, end up losing appetite(prangai kan!) and sumtimes i forget to eat. Like ystdy, mom cook me prata, i end up sleeping on the floor after surfing on my laptop, i totally forget bout it till mom woke me up and scolded me for skipping meals. Like i wanna throw a bucket of water on my head -__-
HEY ITS FRED!!! Check this viddy, the one i mentioned earlier. Its really hilarious with his hyper tone of voice and behaving like a 6 years ol' child. LOLs.. and oh thanx to RiRi for recommending me this viddy =D
And surprisingly he appeared in Tyra Banks show, iCarly, TeenChoice Award and yea u can hear hes original voice. Freakin' hilarious kid.Talkin bout Teen Choice award its been a freakin' long tym since i watched cartooooooonssah. Oh yea theres total of 3 seasons, can check it out on his webby or his youtube.
I got home with nothing to do.. My IT Club was cancelled stayed in lab till almost 6pm. Well like i said i have nothing to do so might as well i stay in school with some company of my frenz. eheh. Was freezing in a bus while i was heading home. I could feel my legs were all cold and crumpled. Why? cuz my shoes were utterly wet and dirty. And i didnt bring my sweater, so was like bbbrrrrreezing all e way. Rushed home i saw my mom's HOT coffee(i dont drink cofffee) Just drank it all up. I dont mind if it burn my tounge. haha
Everyday is a bore to me. I feel like the time is ticking so slow. I have nothing to look forward besides schools..and schools..AND MORE SCHOOOLS... my friday plan after CCA was cancelled sob-sob. I'll be soooooooooooooooooooooooo free thats why i recently change my blog skinssah -------_________--------
So as usualy today SW1 i skipped & went out to IMM with RiRi then proceed to J.E Library. We were web caming haha seriously funny especially the retarded people on youtube. Haha crack my day. I'll post the viddy later once i reached home eheh im sure u'll laugh like mental =D
Back in class mundane -_- and its a cold cold whether especially in air con lab bbrrrrreeeezing here.
tengok ah prangai aku bangun kul 7 padahal class kul 10. Da angun tk leh tido. da la smalam tido kul 2++am. ARGHHHHH i need to sleep peacefully, why is it so hard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Why i keep losing alot of things now. Freakin' pissed when i lost my 10bucks.
My eyes is damn tired yet i cant fall to sleep easily and tend to wakeup early! =(
Dont mislead me, U see me often in school like im happy go lucky(so-so)and when it comes to my MSN, Blog, etc im like all a different person with full of emotions. I just needed to express it out and let it aaaall out just to ease myself rather than keeping it in. Im sure everyone has to let it right.Right?! Im not showing off, if i am showing off to the world, might as well i show it to u face to face right alermak! or like the guy who screamed 'im the biggest fool of the world' now thats a show off!!!
So let me be alright? I can't talk to ppl bout what is running thru my head, not even my family what more for my friends?? I just need to blurt it out all in cyberspace.
Y'knw i hate it when im free even for an hour. I just need to occupy my bloody schedule. So frustrating!! And my AIT is way behind compare to my classmates, kala kan the gamers in my class. So now i really need to put a hundred percent attention in lecture. Even when someone talking to me, idky i have the habbit on day dreaming. Like i cant focus whats is he/she saying. I tend to stare at her/him bllindly and just nod my head. And when the conversation ends, i'll be like 'what did u say'?? Grrr frustrating habbit!! Hate it when i lose focus.
Thanx to Mr. Aliz Zala for scanning this pics i requested months ago. Now only then i received but its ok. We humans are forgetful. Dont blame him at all.
These pics brings me alot of memories of 2008 - 2009
Here's a pic of my current classmate at ITE Clementi. Dont we look B.E.A.Utiful?? HAHA I tell u which lecturer i damnd' & adored.
See that lecturer on the 3rd from the left front row and from the right on the 3rd and 4th column, are one of my fav lecturers. Lastly from the first row on the 5th from the left the most hatred lecturer. Hmm why -- well dont ask. Or some of u already knew haha.
I planned to have a softcopy since i accidently deleted this photo last year. I still think this pic we look really...happy? Thx to updilla for capturing these moments. Oh-well~
Yerp these are one of my closest mates in ITE Clem. Im known for the only girl LOLs
I dont know bout u but somehow i feel like we've been deceived by those media and Illuminati. So many secrets in the world we dont know.
And they have the actual proof why they kill MJ. Well its up for u guys to believe
Theres alot of videos bout Illuminati, google em' if ur keen to know more. And also watch the whole episodes bout the arrival on youtube. Theres alot of secrets revealed in that video.
I was so happy, beyond happy -- In my dream that is..
U know what i dreamt of?
CATS!
Seriously nice dream, theres like cats everywhere and i chase em' till i went into stranger's house. Sat on someone's window hugging this fat furry cat tightly. I can see him choking but what the hack i just keep on hugging the cat. Then i saw another adorable cat, i let go the one that im hugging jump out from the window and chased him.
Chase and chase suddenly i met my mom.
It was all vague dream couldn't remember.... oh well Its weird dream but all the cats were all furry -- cute -- adorable.
Now im all single, doesn't mean its fine for u to come back and be friends with me again. How many times must i tell u to stay away from me?? Get it? Stay away -- dont read my blog -- dont add me up in facebook?
I have reasons but im not gonna tell u why.
Just understand and go away !!
Thanx for making me PissedOff!
Friday, December 18, 2009
Posted by: mirDARLINGseh Time: 12:38 AM Comments:0
Dear Hadi..
I know once ur back from Tekong, u'd be reading this.
Well its for u anyways...
The first time i met u, i see u different from all the other creatures.
U got the whole package that i've longing for.
When u'r around, my defenses go.
You don't let me run away, twist and turn the truth.
You never fail to make me smile.
You're patience and sweet dimple smile never fails to melts me.
Never forget how comfortable when im around u.
Mainly u were my dream guy -- back then
Now...?
Its all different.
If i could carry on livin with u,
I would but not like this.
Sumtimes it really breaks my heart when i had to be apart from u.
When i said i miss you, is the old Hadi that i miss. .
Had a long nap after religious class & cooking. Still bored -- This is why they said "find more new friends, or make plans with friends" Bullshit!! I really feel like i need an alone time w/o feeling bored thats all. Bodoh nyer feeling im dealing. *sigh*
bored
Bored
BOred
BORed
BOREd
BORED!
the feeling of bored is pissing me off or was it -- other issues??
Ding-Dong a text message from Hadi. Was rather glad to hear from him. Sorta worried when he's been idle. Yea usually he'd text me at 9.30pm.. Im all mad yet im worried bout him? Am i nuts!! How could anybody have a combo mixed-up feeling!! arghh thats what i hate about myself.
I dont know how am i to handle when i'll be seeing him on 24th December. Fetching him from PasirRis on his book-out day. I thought of not to and just ignore him -- but I realised back then he had done good things to me & my mom. To me by saying 'thank-you' it isn't enough, I had to repay him with kindness atleast.
Of all the bad things he did, doesn't mean i forget all about his good side and deeds he had done.
Slowly i guess i'll softened my heart, but each time i think about the things he did that made me oh so full of enraged. Thats when my ego and temper started to rises. I can't find ways to ease my pain hais...
Woke up at 12pm, 1st thing that pop up in my head was the song called 'Damppened Spirit by Ingridé' where i first had my gig mosh(i think) @ Baybeats. Was like few years back during my secondary school days. Those single-single days. With no limitations haha. Now im back hearing to Hardcore Electro songs hwahwaaa!
Introduce u toIngridé. Yerp one of my favourite local band back then. Had a blast during their gig at Baybeats.
Some of my mates don't believe i was a so-called tomboy haha. Take a look a pic of me during my secondary school times:
Different from now right?? Yea i myself can't believe. Its like a metamorphosis
Don't know why the sudden i feel like my mood is going way back to the past before i met anyone.
Though i may be single, im not ready for a new relationship.
Sadly i failed relationshit twice in my life.
I thought the second would be a success.
I guess god have other plans for me, or mebbe a better plans ahead for me, well IDK.
Sorry if i abandoned my friends while i was attached back then..
I need an alone time.
I need to redeem myself.
Posted by: mirDARLINGseh Time: 12:23 AM Comments:0
Confussion State of Mind
Likewise my classmates or should i call em' my members, they really made my day. I thank u for that. And this is their new lame quotes "YOUR MOM CHEST HAIR!" hahaa
While i was in my friend's car on the way to ..Ang Mo Kio -- Geylang -- Pasir Ris Chalet, my mind was constantly thinking of a way out. Im in a conffusion state. Should i just softened my heart and give another chance or just fuck it and leave it, be as ego as ever just to cover my fucking pain and torment.
Never take some one for granted, Hold every person close to your heart, Because you might wake up one day and realize, That you have lost a diamond, While you were too busy collecting stones.
I hate it when im ego. I hate that i had to hurt someone im closed with. Just that i had to for the sake of fighting my pains away. I can't handle it. Its just too much pain n torment. No one knows my pain, my anger. They assumed im desprate for love? Do u kow the difference between love and desprate? If im desprate it wont be this far with him. Hack i would go to someone else for love! So please dont tell me that im desprate. And yea, pls dont ever criticize my mother! She brought me up, she raised me up without a father, to me shes a best mom! I'll get offended easily when someone critizie my mom. If u wanna spit vulgars throw it on me, not on my mom. All i knw a girl like u, its a total deffensive, slut, bitch, snatcher, cheeky. A girl like u, i can find anywhere on the streets. I will nvr forget n forgive u for swearing my mom, which is totally absurd and insolent! For what-ev it is, i'll never forgive her for bringing my mom into this matter its just too immature and really unsulting.
Some part of me felt like i was dying wen i had to let go of him. Its not cuz of freedom, its cuz of the pain he causes me. Pls dont think that im one of those gerls who bastard a guy and go for someone else. Im not like that. Only god knows my pain.
Another week my mom will be home soon. Come home soon maa :,(
Mebbe i wont be attending to the chalet this Monday.
Will confirm u again on Monday aites.
Posted by: mirDARLINGseh Time: 12:43 AM Comments:0
Wanna see my baby's bald head photo?
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Ok that was a joke haha, didnt get to see him bald yet actually. im imagining him bald with an arrow on his head just like Aang =D superb cute.. I can't wait to rub my hands all over ur bald botak head wen ur back HWAHWAA. Grrrrr cant wait for after 2 weeks.
Now he's at Pulau Tekong & Im here at Jurong. Which is extremely damn faaarrr I hate u for leaving me!
At the bright side, i get to hear his voice for a minute before lights out, thats good enough fer me. But i dunno how long his batt will last since army forbids em' to bring charger or they'll be fine! The rules and restrictions are so like wtf -_-
Wad a suddn tag msg i received. Usually he doesnt tag on my blog. Hahaha find it sweet. kikikiki
Friday, December 11, 2009
Posted by: mirDARLINGseh Time: 12:53 AM Comments:0
GOODBYE for 2 weeks
I guess today was the last day i had my last date with myPrince. Gonna be a long 2 weeks for me.
Take care aite wen ur in camp. Haha hoping in the midst, he'd be more mature and more mascular LOLs
My pillon bike hahah. Acam ada ciri2 tak jadi minah motor? LOLs
Stole L4D from my mate's hard-drive. I thank u for that! Gonna play it till i get bored with it especially during cummin holidays. Who-ev got a 2nd version of L4D pls do share and seed online =D
My head hurts been elbow punchd by Salim directly on my fore-head(unintentionally la) HAHA how did it happend? Was peeking on Alif's comp screen with other guys in my classmates. Somehow Salim's arm was long enough to elbow punch on my head by accident. All thanx to the SoccerManager.com, likewise la all the guys in my class are soccer game FREAAAKS, when they're engross they forget all the surroundings, Nvr get close to em' while they're gaming -_-!!. Pundex tol.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Posted by: mirDARLINGseh Time: 12:12 AM Comments:0
Gonna watch this movie SOOON! but it releases on 12March2010 in US. For Singapore, no clue when! Hack gonna watch in theater since im a MEMBER!! =D or just dwnld it in my laptop since my laptop superb fast!! Gonna watch it with myPrince or alone. .
Stole 2012 from my friends hard-drive. Gonna watch it on my lappy with myPrince. HAHA im like one of the last person to watch this.
Gonna watch it again in my laptop during these comming boring holidays -_- 98% completed, left 2percent(MAKE IT FAAAAST!)
Greeeat Prince will be joining all the botak2 group during my fucken PIC test! macam nak cabot ader!!
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Posted by: mirDARLINGseh Time: 12:51 AM Comments:0
Edward:
Jacob:
And i say : KWANG KWANG KWAAAAAANGG
Posted by: mirDARLINGseh Time: 12:38 AM Comments:0
Im the mood of lying down with muziqs in my laptop and daydream. Leaving out my stressful school ASS-ignments!!
What shall i do when ur away?? Job? Went for interview, no calls no response just cause im a student. Im all jobless. I got nothing to do besides my school projects/ass-ignments and burn my time away staring at my laptop screen blankly. Come to think of it, i got nothing much in me. I dont know what u find me so attractive or useful? Been wondering actually. Since the day u upgrade urself, U got ur own bike, ur huge circle of friends, freedom. While me just my school bag, ezlink card, a number of mates & plus my lifestyle is not like urs, i have a tight curfews. Compare me & u now, i am nothing great.
I just feel like we're different not like what we used to yet ur still here. Not that i mind just that i feel really different...in u. I understand this is part of life. People change as times goes by.
Late 2009(recently)
Early 2008
At times i do miss thse years back then. Before the bike came in. It reminds me how i fall for u. The closer i get to u, the more i learn bout u. The things u hate, u love, ur bad side, ur good side..Everything.
Now u've changed(though u didnt realise), i feel like i gotta start back from the top to get to know u again. But that doesn't mean im gonna forget those leap years. The most thing i love bout him is not cause of what he have, cause he made me a better person from what i used to be. That is why he made a huge impact in my life. And i hate it when ppl said that im blind. I need to wake up. No i think its u who need to wake up, stop giving me bad advice, making him look bad, and ask me to find someone else? get a life! That is why now i dont really like talking my probs to peeps. They tend to think otherwise. And I dont really like ppl to look bad on him.
*I gotta learn to accept ppl's good side and bad side, No one is perfect. U taught me that love (:
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Posted by: mirDARLINGseh Time: 12:30 AM Comments:0
While waiting for me to cool myself after a tiring date out with myPrince, wanna blog bout NEW MOON SAGA. its an interesting and complicated at e same time? I rate it 10 point 10. Its bout the cold ones & the hot ones. Curious wad im toking bout? Go check it out! Its worth watching in e theater. Oh yea wanna thanx WeiXiong my mate for for booking me a good seat =D
U dont knw how enormously great great great great im feeling wen ur back!! Thanx (:
Yerp mom called, Alhamdulillah. Happy and calmed to know shes fine....=D
Yeaaaah!! Hes wearing that SUPERBMAN Top, Gagaaa gueh
My boy here not into cam-ing, so not much pix taken yea.
Im tired went out with him since 2pm till 12am. Really exhausted wanna knock out. Tomorrow those who are comming to Sentosa pls do lemme know. Will be taking photos and video shooting and of course nak mandi pat laut, mandi la!!
Most of the time mom would be cooking rendang, vegetables, sambal chicken for Hari Raya Haji. Now that shes not around, me and sis took over her place. Dishes were wonderful, but not as perfect as my mom. Sian really sian w/o her around.
Pray for my mom that she'll be alright. Somewhere in Saudi Arabia where she is now is in bad flood(if u heard the news). What i know rain doesn't come often in Arab. I guess this is a test from Allah. Usually she called home at 9pm, why isn't my home phone ringing? Worried really worried
Total theres 7 Days in a week right? Theres: Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday How bout i add another day to end the week by naming it "Gooday" after Sunday. Huh cool right total theres 8 days in a week? K la mebbe to u its rubbish total loser thought, im just bored i think alot of rubbish. Oh yea felt nice after i fell down in a bus at the second level of the double deck. I guess i was too tired or sumtin? Paisey mann.
Happy like nvr happy before. Mom called home yesterday, while i was watching her favourite tv Indon show. Yes2 shes fine alhamdulillah, even my mom's friend called askin if she ever called. And 2ndly why im happy got to hang out with someone. Not date la just hangout/lepak. Dont ask who cuz i wont answer u.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Posted by: mirDARLINGseh Time: 11:11 AM Comments:0
The day my mom left for Haji, i witness a shooting star while i was gazing at the sky late at night. Its a miracle to me, i really miss her alot :,( May Allah always protect her. And she'll always be in my prayers, Amin~
I dedicate this for my mom. I just feel so lost when shes not around. Moreover when im in this condition. It just feel so quiet at home. Feels different w/o her. Before the day she took off. I had a bad gastric at night. Only me n sis knew bout it. I begged her not to let my mom know. Just wanna let her be in peace.
I'm always longing for her return. May Allah always protect her and guide her. I miss u mom :,(
As a promised to my mom i'll be better when shes away, insya'Allah
ACF was *&^*GHBHB*Y&57567VFGYU^%# all becuz of that U-KNOW-WHO. She is so bossy and so rude. Seriousy if i have the guts i'll swing my arms and punch on her face till she flew back. Woah shes making my temper boil siaa.
So to complete my task i just keep my mindset that what-ev im doing, is for friend's sake. Not for her or that bloody ACF!!!
Had a little bit of fun during break time. Well i ate 2 plate of rice and chill at library alone with my laptop, knowing somebody would come online. Well i guess not..
Ok now letthe picture do the talking:
Food damn nice we ranked it 10!!
Alif
Lionel
Fatin
You forever with your pudding!!
Yvonne!!
Class KM
Spot Fatin?
Yess shes the one that made me boil my temper
The wind is so strong.. Can see the wind thru my hair LOLs
Turn out i didnt even go to ACF haha. Woke up at 12+pm Im not sure what time is the 2nd shift, my mates didnt reply my msg, so if they hack care i'll do the same. Besides i think its better if i attend my religious class and i get to clean my house before Monday. Yerp Monday gonna be a big day for my mom, gonna have guest so house must be superb clean.
I guess tmrw i'll attend the ACF event. Like lazy actually..
Slept at 12am, awaken by the gastric at 3+am. Couldn't stand the pain, i took my pills but it said it need to be taken after food, rushed to my kitchen and heat up 2 slice of murtabak in a microwave. Eat in my room just so no one in my family notice. After awhile im better a bit. It just scares me wen-ev i experienced gastric .Now i guess i have to carry my medicine where-ev i go. -_- ok now i really regret for skipping meals. Sorry stomach.
I think later event im going for the 2nd shift, i need rest. Sorry guys. Besides they dont pay us. DUH! And it'll be really tiring cuz we're dealing kids, ands kids are really hyper. So we have to be hyper with em' HAHA
Now its 423am, can't sleep at the moment. Do what? Watch love story movie in my laptop till i doze off hehs.
Never get to rest. Since Monday i've been having a hard time sleeping. Thru out the week i had to wake up 7am??9am?? even on this weekends i had to wake up at 8am. =( im tired, and most of all i need to relax my mind only then i can relax my physical.
After school proceed to IMM swensen, mann that service was sucks. Like very rude seriously, but at least i showed my manners i smiled at her. Well thats not the reason why i said is bad. I requested for a wording on a an ice-cream cake and bloody pissed, she didn't show it to me after shes done on the wording. She just wraped it in a box and asked me for the bill. I wanted to scold her actually. but come to think of it, once i let go of my anger on someone, thats it mann its gonna be a ugly. cuz now i really really not in a good mood since Monday. I just kept it to myself and gave her a smile. And she never smiled back. I regretted buying cake at IMM Swensen. Should have gone to Jurong Point Swensen instead though its far. Far as in i had to deliver the cake @TohGuan sumwer near IMM a 10-mins walk. After i sent my cake to "someone" i had to rush home and had my prayers and head back to school. Seriously tired. And i was late thanx to 154!!
Nehmind the crap services doesn't matter to me, Im just glad u liked my cake. Yea that really gives me a little peace of mind now.
Went home straight after CCA. (Oh yea, i quit Videography!! Atlast eh) And unfortunately im home alone. Bored. Lay around in my room. Got scolded by my sis for laying around my keys outside my home. I forgot to remove my keys from the door after i enter in my house. Must have slipped my mind, or im just too tired to remember, my brain is really off. & My stomach giving me problems. I hope its not gastric. Y'knw wad hppns if i have gastric. No its not the pain that im worried. Im worried more on my mum. Like i said i want her not to worry bout me when shes out there at Saudi. Hais 2 more days left to spend time with my mom.
Posted by: mirDARLINGseh Time: 11:26 AM Comments:0
Its been a week i haven't been paying attention to lecture. Seriously my Advance IT(AIT) is way-way behind. My project idle. My CCA, pity my frens i didnt manage to help em'. Where was i? In my own world. Staring blankly at my screen -_-
My AIT exam is comming soon. Yet im still on Assignment 2 and my class is already on revisions. I've yet to complete my Assignment 3 and so on.. I might need my frens help on this weekends. Though i'll be busy with ACF dealing with hundreds of kids. mebbe after my 8 hrs shift i'll be focusing on my AIT with some help la. Anybody??
Please please i dont wanna go thru another gastric. I can feel like the pain is comming back. Yeah i admit im stuborn for not eating. Sometimes i thought i wanna eat, end up losing appetite(prangai kan!) and sumtimes i forget to eat. Like ystdy, mom cook me prata, i end up sleeping on the floor after surfing on my laptop, i totally forget bout it till mom woke me up and scolded me for skipping meals. Like i wanna throw a bucket of water on my head -__-
HEY ITS FRED!!! Check this viddy, the one i mentioned earlier. Its really hilarious with his hyper tone of voice and behaving like a 6 years ol' child. LOLs.. and oh thanx to RiRi for recommending me this viddy =D
And surprisingly he appeared in Tyra Banks show, iCarly, TeenChoice Award and yea u can hear hes original voice. Freakin' hilarious kid.Talkin bout Teen Choice award its been a freakin' long tym since i watched cartooooooonssah. Oh yea theres total of 3 seasons, can check it out on his webby or his youtube.
I got home with nothing to do.. My IT Club was cancelled stayed in lab till almost 6pm. Well like i said i have nothing to do so might as well i stay in school with some company of my frenz. eheh. Was freezing in a bus while i was heading home. I could feel my legs were all cold and crumpled. Why? cuz my shoes were utterly wet and dirty. And i didnt bring my sweater, so was like bbbrrrrreezing all e way. Rushed home i saw my mom's HOT coffee(i dont drink cofffee) Just drank it all up. I dont mind if it burn my tounge. haha
Everyday is a bore to me. I feel like the time is ticking so slow. I have nothing to look forward besides schools..and schools..AND MORE SCHOOOLS... my friday plan after CCA was cancelled sob-sob. I'll be soooooooooooooooooooooooo free thats why i recently change my blog skinssah -------_________--------
So as usualy today SW1 i skipped & went out to IMM with RiRi then proceed to J.E Library. We were web caming haha seriously funny especially the retarded people on youtube. Haha crack my day. I'll post the viddy later once i reached home eheh im sure u'll laugh like mental =D
Back in class mundane -_- and its a cold cold whether especially in air con lab bbrrrrreeeezing here.
tengok ah prangai aku bangun kul 7 padahal class kul 10. Da angun tk leh tido. da la smalam tido kul 2++am. ARGHHHHH i need to sleep peacefully, why is it so hard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Why i keep losing alot of things now. Freakin' pissed when i lost my 10bucks.
My eyes is damn tired yet i cant fall to sleep easily and tend to wakeup early! =(
Posted by: mirDARLINGseh Time: 12:05 AM Comments:0
Dont mislead me, U see me often in school like im happy go lucky(so-so)and when it comes to my MSN, Blog, etc im like all a different person with full of emotions. I just needed to express it out and let it aaaall out just to ease myself rather than keeping it in. Im sure everyone has to let it right.Right?! Im not showing off, if i am showing off to the world, might as well i show it to u face to face right alermak! or like the guy who screamed 'im the biggest fool of the world' now thats a show off!!!
So let me be alright? I can't talk to ppl bout what is running thru my head, not even my family what more for my friends?? I just need to blurt it out all in cyberspace.
Y'knw i hate it when im free even for an hour. I just need to occupy my bloody schedule. So frustrating!! And my AIT is way behind compare to my classmates, kala kan the gamers in my class. So now i really need to put a hundred percent attention in lecture. Even when someone talking to me, idky i have the habbit on day dreaming. Like i cant focus whats is he/she saying. I tend to stare at her/him bllindly and just nod my head. And when the conversation ends, i'll be like 'what did u say'?? Grrr frustrating habbit!! Hate it when i lose focus.
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